Thursday, September 10, 2009

I've been mulling it over for quite some time, but today is the day that I'm going to start really getting down to business in the dieting realm. Mae is now weaned and my body is mine to deal with! Thats' quite the exciting prospect after 3 1/2 years of either being pregnant or nursing a baby. I know that it's time for me to buckle down and be good. I know better when I eat the things I eat. I have the knowledge, it's just applying it. I know how bad all the refined, sugary, salty, terrible food is. I know how God intended our bodies to eat, it's just denying my overwhelming sense of "just this one time" about a brownie which turns into all the time. I look at friends who have had babies and don't look any different. They can still wear bikinis and don't have stretch marks up to wazoo. That kills me! But why hasn't it killed me enough to do something about it? I'm not sure.  Probably because I'm the one that would rather lay in bed and read than hop on a treadmill. During our vacation this year we stayed in Mammoth and with our cabin rental came free access to the Athletic Club. My sister and I went the few days we were up there and I felt so good! I slept better, I had more energy, etc. (All those dumb things that do happen when you exercise.) Why couldn't I keep it up? Was it the lack of novelty because I wasn't in Mammoth at a really nice sports club?

I have to find my motivation somewhere in all of this and I think I might be on to something. My kids don't deserve a mom with health problems that are aggravated by weight issues. That goes for the present and for the future. Someday I'm going to be an old woman and if I don't want to be an old woman with heart problems, diabetes, etc. I am going to have to work at it now. As for the present I need all the energy I can get and I can't get that energy from Del Taco burritos. (Shocking, I know!) I need to be out and about and working all this extra jiggly off. It's really time for me to rise to the occasion. I'm only 25 and I need my body to feel like I'm 25. My goal is simple, to get to a healthy weight and tone up some of this mom tummy action. I have some brutal stretch marks on my stomach and I want to see if toning my belly will help ease their dramatic look. This might be the little bit of Orange County in me talking, but eventually I'd really like to have my stretch marks removed.  Ahh... that'll be the day.

My husband has recently lost a grip load of weight. His motivation? I gave him the green light on a motorcycle once we can afford it. I had been telling him "No" on the motorcycle idea for a long time. I had also been pestering him about his eating habits (pot calling the kettle black). Then on Easter Sunday this year I had a brillant idea! "If you lose this much weight you can buy a motorcycle. You have my blessing." A pinky promise was made. Guess who has lost almost 20 pounds? Guess who feels better? Who looks really hot in those black skinny jeans? MY HUSBAND! I think it's time that I match his enthusiasm and start looking hot in my skinny jeans.

My freshman year of college I lost about 40 pounds total. I know that's the opposite of what most freshman do. But my mom and I went to a weight loss group at church called Prism. Most people who weren't involved but knew about it called it PRISON. It was tough. No carbs whatsoever for the first six weeks. Only 2000 calories a day. Nothing fried or baked in oil. Lots of healthy veggies, chicken, drinking water like no one's business. Not only did we lose weight, we felt so good. I've never felt more healthy in my life. This will be my strategy starting today. No bad/processed food if I can help it and no carbs. Good bye jiggly! Don't worry, it's not the Atkins diet, it's more like purifying your eating habits over time and re-training yourself to think about food as fuel, not entertainment.  I'm not even going to have to give up on my coffee... it has hardly any calories when you don't pack it full of creamer and sugar. I'm not big on that already, I sometimes drink it black. When I do add to it, it's usually 2% or non-fat milk. I'm going to get my nalgene bottle down and chug water like it's going out of style.  I'm going to start walking to help tone myself... I wish I could read and walk. Maybe I could get a couple of audio books and put them on my iPod. Yes! That's the ticket. Why haven't I thought of that before?? Because I'm lazy. That's why. I'm going to just throw that out in the open, I'm not into physical exercise. Sorry. I am however into increasing the quality of not only my life, but my kid's life ( and my hubby's sex life ;) )

Earlier this year, when I had my gallbladder removed I swore up and down that I wouldn't eat poorly anymore. Wow. How did that excruciating pain not stick with me? Gallstones feel a lot like labor pains, but up around your chest. How did I forget how terrible it was to be in the hospital with that? I need it to remind me to eat better. I might just hang up the pictures I have of those gallstones. It might sound strange, but if I can see those little boogers looking at me everyday, I might just have my daily reminder.

In my quest for health and a better life I need to remember most of all that God gave me this body. It's not mine to mistreat. It's his temple and I need to throw a few things out. I need to "gut" the building so to speak.

I know this passage is technically about sexual immorality, but it seems to work for this, too:

Do you not know that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit, who is in you, whom you have received from God? You are not your own; 20you were bought at a price. Therefore honor God with your body.

1 Corinthians 6

I'm off for the day. Pray that I'm strong and pray that I'm constantly reminded of why I need to stop being lazy.



Bonni said...

Wow, this is a biggie you have ahead of you! I am glad you have those memories of your health during the PRISM time to reference back to. Take it a day at a time, or whatever will work for you. I know this will be hard, but if God's will is for you to honor him with your body, he'll give you grace and strength to go through with it.

I currently have a sugar addiction that I have to break, otherwise diabetes is going to be unavoidable. It's so hard ... and right now I'm making every excuse in the book for why I shouldn't have to do this. But I do.

Andrea Dennistoun said...

Good luck Leigh! I am working on the same thing as well right now and it has it's ups and downs. I totally feel you, I'm 26 and haven't even had kids yet, how can my body look like this?!?! I worked so hard to get in shape after moving to Yucaipa and I have gained it all back and then some. =( But I am motivated now...I want to look good! Matt promised me a pair of true religion jeans when I lose all my weight! I wish you were closer so we could help each other out, but I am always just a facebook comment or text away! I know you can do it! And this time next year we will be 2 HOT wives!! =)

Melissa said...

"I look at friends who have had babies and don’t look any different. They can still wear bikinis and don’t have stretch marks up to wazoo." I feel the same way... I don't think I ever wore a bikini, but they are not in my future! My stretch marks are still inch+ across and purple. About the same time you posted this I decide to really put some effort into losing around 40 pounds. Ellie is still nursing so I can't diet a whole lot, but I have started a at home exercising routine. Hopefully she will wean soon so I can really go at this! Good luck!! And God willing we can both be happy healthy Moms/Wifes!